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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like ****.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough *** days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

When I started this 30 Days series, I know from the start that this topic would be a sore one.

I know people who are gay.

I know (of) Christians who support gay marriage.

I’m still not sure where I stand on the subject.

I know that I’m (eventually) going to get hateful comments on this post, but these are MY views. Everyone is different. We all have our own opinions. You’re entitled to believe whatever you want. I’m simply sharing my thoughts. If you don’t like it, you can leave. Kthxbai.


Kay, we’re gonna break this down and put it back together.


I do not believe that anyone is born gay.

I believe that some people may have a higher “risk” of “becoming” gay, but I do not believe that it is something you can base solely on genetics. There are lots of factors.

I believe that homosexuality is due in part to environment, and also emotions.

I am of the opinion that nurture has a lot to do with to whom we are attracted.

Sometimes (not always), it has do with relationships with parents. (Or number of siblings of the opposite gender.)


Say I’m a child (like, three). Say I have a bad relationship with my father–he scares me, or is not around much, and does not give me the attention that all little girls need from their fathers.

Say I have a better relationship with my mother.

I may decide (subconsciously) that it is to my benefit to hate men, and spend a lot more time with women. Because my father was absent physically or emotionally.

Now say I’m still the same child, but say I have a better relationship with my father than my mother. In this instance, I may subconsciously decide that all women are going to be absent, and spend all of my time with males.

Or it could go the other way: same-sex parent (in my case, mom) is terrible or absent, so I subconsciously decide that I need to prove to myself, or to the other women in my life, that I am worthy of love and affection. Attention from women fills the hole left by my mother.

Same could be said for guys with bad relationships with their fathers: they seek out that love and affection elsewhere, through super-close relationships with other men.

Just something I’ve observed as SOMETIMES true. Doesn’t mean I’m right, just something I’m thinking about.

I’m going to be completely honest with you here: this is something I struggle with.

And I’m in the “better relationship with Dad than Mom” camp.

Also the “boys are idiots, and girls understand me better” camp.

Sometimes I wonder…


I believe in Genesis 2:20-24.

Notice it says “no suitable helper“. It does not say “no suitable slave” or “no suitable punching bag” or anything like that which justifies men being jerks to their wives.

They are to work together.

And what do a lot of pastors say at weddings?

What God has brought together, let no man tear asunder. (Or some variation.)

What GOD has brought together.

That’s what people used to think.

Now, not so much.


For me, marriage is one man + one woman (+ God).

It’s a lasting union, or a Forever Friendship, as I like to say.

Putting it together.

Still not totally sure.

I mean, I know we want everyone to be equal, but…

It’s something that is incredibly controversial, and I’m still not completely sure of my opinion on gay marriage. Since I believe homosexuality is more a subconscious decision than a genetic thing, and that marriage is man+ woman, I think I’m leaning toward “Um, no.”

Check this out:

“When I was 17 years old I was recruited into the gay lifestyle by an older homosexual man. Like so many young people who get drawn into homosexuality, I was lonely, naive and vulnerable. My father was an alcoholic. My self-esteem was very low. I was easy prey for anyone who was willing to exploit my need for a fathers love.”

(Full article. This first paragraph = my thoughts exactly.)

Also, check out Love Is An Orientation. I want the book.


Did you know that in ancient… Rome? I think? aristocratic men would take younger men (a lot younger men, like Elton-John-and-his-partner age difference [FIFTEEN YEARS] or more) and have sexual relationships with them. And then go off and get married to women and have families.

And in … Mayan culture? (some ancient culture in Mexico, like the Aztecs. I’m too lazy to look it up in my notes) families would sometimes raise a male as if he were a female (I forget the term. You can probably Google it). And as kind of a normal part of life, the young men in the village would rape this boy. 

It was considered kind of a rite of passage, an “initiation” into adulthood, I think.

Which kind of creeps me out, to be honest. =\