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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like ****.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough *** days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.


I hadn’t realized until I went to start typing this that this scenario totally could’ve actually happened.

If M and I had talked just an hour before her accident and gotten into an argument…

But it didn’t. I had seen her just the weekend before she died, but we didn’t argue. We rarely argued about anything. Which was cool.

But if one of my other best friends were to get into an accident, regardless of whether we’d argued/fought the hour beforehand, I’d be mad. And sad. And probably crying my eyes out.

The worst of it would be if I felt that I had caused the accident by making one of my best friends mad and storming off, or something.

But in that situation, I would have people insisting that it wasn’t my fault, and I’d have to work at reminding myself of that.

And even if I knew it wasn’t my fault, I’d feel terrible.

I’m incredibly empathetic and compassionate.

I cry very easily.

(Case in point: the last two weeks I’ve been crying because of songs at church. And they’re not depressing songs.)

I would FREAK OUT if my friend was in an accident, regardless of whether we’d argued right before the accident.

I would call someone, pray, and if possible, drive to the hospital.

Now, with all three of my best friends being at leat two hours away by car (one of them sometimes flies home ’cause she’s in another state), driving to see them would be… I dunno, intense?

But I’d probably demand to be informed of their progress, at least.

Having lost two friends to car accidents, this question sucks.

The first one, Miss M, I found out the next morning at school. Skipped school in favor of crying in a conference room and then having the other three best friends over to my house for pizza and a funny movie, to lighten the mood.

The second one, J, I found out about the day of. I got the text message (that she was in the hospital; she died later on that afternoon I think) from a friend on my way to my car after classes. I wanted to cry and scream and kick something and swear. I called my mom instead, asked if she’d heard. And then drove home even though I probably shouldn’t have in that emotional state.

Not fun weeks. And both girls were in their accidents on Wednesdays.

M was hit (rear-ended) by a drunk driver; J by a guy who under (over?) estimated his timing in crossing a busy road.

I was mad, sad, hurt, you name it.

But I got through it.

Just like I would get through one of my three best friends getting into an accident.


By the way, happy Monday!

I woke up this morning and went, “It’s only Monday? =\”

Click for source.

This is going to be a long week…

But oh well. We’ll get through it, right? 🙂

Gotta go read Matthew 21-24!

I forgot to read 21-22 yesterday… Oops.

Oh well.