Summer, hurry up.

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family, school, stress

Next week is my last week of classes.

Then it’s Finals.

They’re at least a week later this year than they were last year, apparently.

My sister will be done this week.

A friend is done next week.

Another friend was done a week ago.

I just want it to be over.

I’m at the point where my motivation is pretty much gone and I just want my homework to write itself.

Add to that a sick family member and… well.

It’s not pretty.

So if you think of it, would you pray for my cousin? (Well, cousin’s son, but still a cousin.)

He’s been having a rough couple of weeks, and he’s not getting any better. At least, he wasn’t as of a few hours ago. It’s making me nervous, and we’re all pretty worried.

A little worried…

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Jesus, school, stress

So, I’ve been a little worried about Spanish today.

I took the online placement test, and it put me in 102, so that’s what I signed up for.

Yesterday in class the prof kept going on about how it’s going to be hard, and if you haven’t had 2 or 3 Spanish classes already it’s going to be tough and basically why are you even in this class.

My roommate assured me last night that according to the people she’s talked to who have had this class, it’s really not that difficult.

I’m hoping she’s right.

I’ve technically only had one Spanish class.

My Senior year of high school.

But honestly, they should’ve bumped me up into at least Spanish 2, because I was catching on quickly. (Thank you, French class! And Romance languages in general for being so similar.)

So…

Yeah, a little freaked out.

I mean, French is really similar to Spanish, and I’ve had essentially five classes of that.

So I should be able to catch up/on in Spanish pretty easily, right?

Hopefully.

Because if I’m not doing well enough by the end of next week, and my prof notices, she did say that she does move people down to 101.

Which would not work for me at all because of timing.

That’s the whole reason I took this Spanish class—it was the only one that still had spots open that was MWF instead of TTh and fit in my schedule that way.

So if she does ask me to move down to 101, I’m going to have to just drop Spanish altogether this semester, because timing does not work.

Which would leave me at 13 credits.

Technically that’s still full-time, I believe, and I don’t really need Spanish for anything (unless I decide I can fit a Modern World Language Minor in which I probably can’t), but four more credits this semester is helpful for graduation requirements and whatnot.

So I’m worried.

Also, my 2-D class is going to be interesting.

The prof is … different.

I texted L, who’s had him probably multiple times, and she said, “Hahaha, yeah.”

I’m slightly confused by our first few assignments (due Tuesday and Thursday), but… whatever. We’ll make it.

My Comm class this semester sounds like a lot of work, but I have to take it and this prof is going to be on sabbatical in the fall and I just want to get it out of the way so I’m taking it now.

On the plus side, I know several people in the class.

So that’s cool.

And French.

Oh, French.

When I looked at the list of who was in the class online this afternoon, there were 11 of us, including the professor.

There were eight of us in class.

And we’re all girls.

And the prof sounds like she’s from France or someplace where they speak French because she’s like super fluent and has this accent…

And she’s going to be gone for a month, probably in April, so we’re going to have some other French prof teaching us. I think she’s actually the dean of French or something special like that. She sat in on class today and will probably sit in until she starts teaching us.

So it’s going to be a busy, stressful, interesting semester.

I kind of hope next year is easy compared to this year, except it probably won’t be because I have to take Senior Seminar which sounds intimidating…

Oy.

On a cooler note, watch this!

Little preacher, him!

I just want it to be next Thursday

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school, stress

I want to be home.

I wanted to fall asleep last night and wake up next Thursday.

I don’t want to go to Media today.

I don’t exactly want to take a final tomorrow.

I want to be finished writing papers.

I want to be finished with finals and just relax and pack and clean.

Jesus, You’re the Author of Time.

Can’t You speed things up a bit?

I know, I know: If I always got this wish for jumping ahead in time granted, I wouldn’t learn some of the important stuff.

Then can I at least skip Media today?

I haven’t done much of anything for this project, aside from filming a lame “commercial” and emailing my partner a million questions.

I feel sick just thinking about this.

I wish I was legitimately sick so I had a reason to skip.

Except that I have a paper due, and I need my outline back from my other prof.

Ugh. This is so annoying.

Twelve thirty until 2:15 is not going to go well.

Thanks: Day 6

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25 days of thanks, chatting, cookies, homework, RA, school, stress

days of thanks

Today I am thankful that I only have three days of classes left.

Possibly all three of those days will  be stressful, but I will make it.

I am also thankful for down-time in the form of chatting with the RA and eating cookies. My RA is the best RA.

And for finishing my Bible paper three days before it is/was due. I can’t turn it in until Thursday, but it’s done!

Now I have to do more homework. That is not due until next Thursday. But I want to get it out of the way now so I have less stress the rest of the week.

STRESS

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school, stress

I Googled “stress” and this was like the third photo.

I’m So. Stressed.

Attempting to register for classes.

It sucks.

I got into three of the ones I wanted, but the other two I was hoping to get into are full.

My mom and I talked for around an hour and I still have questions.

I’m going to try to get these questions answered tomorrow.

It’s so stressful.

I hate it.

I just want to be home for break now.

Whoops.

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cute, family, happy, kids, life, school, stress, work

I haven’t posted much this week, have I?

Sorry!

I’ve been busy stressing over scheduling.

And I started stressing a little more tonight when my mom called me with a question about one of my classes at the community college that we thought would have fulfilled a requirement here that apparently didn’t, and…

It’s just stressful.

I emailed the transfer counselor and hopefully I’ll get a response back tomorrow.

This class is a prerequisite for one or two of the classes I’m hoping to take this spring, and my advisor said nothing about it yesterday. So I’m confused.

Oh, let’s start at the beginning of yesterday, shall we?

I slept in, because I didn’t have class or chapel.

I spent some time looking over classes again, and called my mom.

Then I went to my meeting.

I ended up waiting an extra half hour after my scheduled meeting time, because the Comm profs were in a meeting that went 30-45 minutes late. (“They are communicators…”)

So I had my meeting, and found out that contrary to what my roommate and I had believed, we are not allowed to take more than one course during Interim. Unless they add up to 5 credits.

We thought you could take two or three, provided you paid per extra credit.

But no.

You can’t.

Which is stupid, and stressed my roommate out because she was planning on taking two classes that she kind of needs to graduate over interim. And now she can’t.

So anyway, I got interim figured out, and sort of got Spring figured out.

But I came back to the apartment to map stuff out and talked to my mom for an hour (an hour) about scheduling. Two of the classes I was hoping to take overlap with another class that I have to take for my major.

So it’s stressful.

But I think that after my meeting with another advisor on Tuesday, things should be better.

But tonight at work was good. Sort of. I worked with a girl I haven’t worked with much before, and we had some good conversations.

We also watched two little kids push the door-open buttons so that they could better get their strollers inside the building. So cute.

And then we saw them a bit later when I was mopping an entryway. They thought that my mop bucket was cool, and then they kept asking their mom questions about me and mopping. It was adorable. 😀

Then a little while after I finished worked, my mom called.

So I’m still a little stressed, but I’m trying to let God handle it. Hopefully after Tuesday it will all be taken care of.

I have a test on Tuesday. Ugh. But I’m thankful it wasn’t today, because I wasn’t ready at all. Now I have more time to study.

And my friend is coming to visit on Saturday!! 🙂

What a night.

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emotion, Good, life, school, stress

I had another awesome conversation tonight.

With my roommate.

On our way back from getting Subway and some random groceries.

She asked how I’m liking school so far, since we’re a bit over halfway done with the semester.

I was honest, and got a bit emotional.

I said that it might’ve gone better if I’d come in as a freshman rather than a junior.

And a couple other things.

And she told me that from her perspective, I’ve done really well.

And I got more choked up.

And she gave me suggestions of things on campus to get involved in, and even offered to go with me to check out certain things if I wanted her to.

And when we got back to the apartment, she mentioned that I could go with her and her boyfriend to church on Sundays if I wanted.

So it’s been a pretty interesting night.

I’m glad that at least one roommate is willing to ask and encourage and suggest and not feel awkward when I start to cry. In other words, she understands. And we’re pretty similar.

I feel kind of badly for saying it, but I’m kind of looking forward to it being just the two of us next semester. Maybe we’ll talk even more. And maybe we’ll do more together. I don’t know. But I think next semester should go better than this one has.

I also got in contact with an old friend I haven’t talk to in a while. My mom and I were talking the other day and she mentioned this friend, who now lives about half an hour from where I am. So I got in touch with her the other day and we’ve decided that sometime, we need to get together and hang out and catch up.

Only problem is that neither of us has a car. (She uses the bus system and stuff.) But we’ll figure something out!

And my favorite coworker is coming this weekend and we’re going to hang out! I need to double check with her in a couple of days that she’s still coming, and figure out what we’re doing, but I’m excited.

And in a month, I get to go home for a few days.

I was slightly disappointed that my prof didn’t bring us treats today like she’d mentioned she might.

We’re having a pizza party eventually in my other class with her, which should be interesting.

I think I maybe need to go to bed…

Emotional Rollercoaster

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Bible, emotion, funny, great, job, school, stress, test, work

All right, so…

Almost three years ago, my best friend was killed in a car accident.

Her parents have forgiven the woman in the other car, who was drunk at the time.

They’ve become friends, and M’s parents fought to keep her from going to prison.

They’ve been counting the days to her release.

Today was that day.

emotions

That was M’s mom’s status today.

I’m right there with her.

I miss M.

I’m glad C is out.

I’m glad she’s asked for and received forgiveness.

I’m glad she’s shared her story.

I hope she and Momma get to share their story in more places, with more people.

I’ve actually started brainstorming a possible script-type thing for a movie.

I know that they’re writing a book together–which will be much easier to do after this morning! I can’t wait to read it–maybe they’ll ask for input? 😉

Anyhow, so this was an interesting day for that reason.

But also for other reasons.

This morning started with a tiny bit of stress.

I got up at 7:45, the usual. Got dressed, brushed my teeth. WHILE brushing my teeth, I realized I hadn’t yet uploaded something that needed to be uploaded by 8AM. I submitted it with about a minute and a half to spare.

Then I walked to class—bought a donut and milk on my way—and skimmed notes before my Bible test.

Can you believe that I forgot a book of the Old Testament? I had all of them except one. After the test I realized that one was Habakkuk. Oops. Oh well, one point lost out of 39 in that section. The test went pretty well aside from that. I skipped one question (worth nine points) because I couldn’t remember the information. I guessed on a few. The prof gave us two answers for free. If the majority of the class gets certain questions wrong, she’ll possibly drop them. Which is nice.

So I finished the test around 9:30, about half an hour before class is supposed to get done.

Found a spot to work on a little homework before class.

Ate a sandwich super-fast because I’d forgotten about lunch.

Went to class, where the prof read off names and said “Guess what, you get to leave for the day!” My name was on that list. I stuck around to pack up my stuff and listen to the rest of the names on the other lists, and as I got up to leave, the prof said, “Um… I didn’t read your name.”

Yes. You did. You said Rebecca, and then Rachel. I remember because that’s my name and my sister’s name. But I was confused because I haven’t turned in the fourth assignment yet.

So that was stupid. But I got the third assignment regraded and started on the fourth one, the one that was super-confusing a week or two ago. I think I know how to do it. I have to work on that tomorrow because the prof said to turn it in on Thursday. (Oh do we have a test Thursday? Probably.)

THEN I went to Media and listened to a “lecture” and left class early because it was a production day. I was going to edit, but all of the computers were being used, and the one I finally logged onto wouldn’t let me open the program. So I left early and called my mom. We talked about school, mostly. And her Bible Study, a little. Mostly school and how frustrating my school’s credit thing is. Ugh. My roomie and I looked at it last night and were very confused. I have to talk to the counselor later this week or early next week…

And then I went to work. Which was good. We start every shift with either a question or a game that helps us kind of get to know each other a little better. By now we all know each other all right, because it’s the same people every shift unless someone’s sick or something, but it’s still fun. Today we spent way too much extra time discussing and laughing. But it was good.

Today we did Two Truths and A Lie, which I once refused to play in Sunday school because it encourages lying. But I participated this time and one of my truths sparked a conversation. Then we went on the rest of the group (I was second), and learned some more interesting things about our supervisor. So. Awesome. He’s my new favorite boss. (Sorry, D!) He’s had such an interesting life! We decided that next week we’re going to get him to tell us even more. I suggested he write a book. (I’d buy it!!)

So work was good. We even got to leave a little bit early. So then I bought a sandwich and yogurt and came back to the apartment—in drizzly rain.

Been watching some TV and some YouTube videos and stuff.

Because I have nothing due tomorrow, and there are no readings up for class yet.

I’m currently watching Jay Leno. Because it’s on.

I think I might go to bed soon, even though it’s only about 11 pm…

Oh hey. Bible reading.

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Bible, family, life, school, stress

I’ve forgotten to post what I’ve been reading for Bible the last few days. Oops.

I’ve been reading, really. I’ve just forgotten to share.

So after Ezekiel, for today, we had to read Ezra 1 & 2, Ruth, and Jonah, and a chapter in the book.

For Thursday, though technically I guess it’s really next Tuesday because we don’t have class on Thursday, we have to read Esther and Daniel 7-12. And a chapter in the book.

AND we have to study for Tuesday’s test. So that’ll be fun. And then a week from Thursday we’ll start on the New Testament, which is not nearly as many years of history.

I have a test on Thursday in my least-favorite class.

I have to film and edit a video for Media. I’m still not entirely sure what my video will be on. I had an idea, but after hearing ideas in class today, I might be changing my mind. Ack.

I don’t wanna do any more homework.

I kind of just want to be done with school.

I need to do laundry tomorrow.

And I think I need to go to bed now.

Oh, my mom’s having surgery on Thursday. Nothing bad happened, it’s just a thing that she’s been thinking about having done for a while that she’s finally decided it’s time to do. But still. Surgery always worries me. So if you could maybe pray for my mom and the surgeons, that would be cool.

Oops.

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homesick, life, school, stress, tough, wondering

My last post was Friday.

I’m sorry.

Life is annoying.

But I did get to spend Saturday with my family!

They came to visit and go shopping. I got new shoes.

It was only for a couple of hours, but it was nice.

This weekend is parents’ weekend here, and I feel like it’s going to suck for me.

There will be parents/families on campus, and I’ll feel left out.

Even though I just saw my family two weeks ago, and this past weekend.

Is that weird, or lame, or something?

So anyway, new shoes, homework sucks… yeah. Life.

It’s weird.

I’m really emotional lately. It’s weird. And I know that it’s not PMS, unless something’s changed lately.

I honestly think that I might be developing depression.

I’ve been thinking about it for the last few days, and it’s something I’m seriously considering.

I mean, it could be stress.

It could be homesickness.

I’m honestly not sure, but it’s this constant I feel like crap thing that I somehow can’t shake for very long. And it sucks. And I want it to go away. But I don’t know how.

I just had to get that out there.